Mokuren

the pool is open

I have good friends.

^_^

and I am grateful.

HOLLAH AT THE CUTENESS!

http://community.livejournal.com/i_would_eat_it/62816.html

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Thats it!! I am carrying my measuring tape around with me for a month and I will only measure things by the metric system. I am sick of being a stupid asshat american that only had a breif fling with the metric system in high school and the rest of the world uses it on a daily basis.
I hate being a retard.
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Random Kylie Love

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/6342189.html

Look how radiant she is. I adore her so much!

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Another Random thought
Does anyone recall a sitcom in the 80's that revolved around Snow White and her Prince/Husband living in todays society or 80's society?
It actually lasted for 1 season I think, anyway why am I recalling this, and who was the asshat on coke that authorised such a show that only a child could love and put it on prime time! matter of a fact I think it was one the T.G.I.F. shows. The funny thing is when they would curse on that show they substituted Fiddlesticks for curse words.
So yeah that was a random thought.
Foo!

Would anyone be kind enough as to help me upload my story to fanfiction.net How do I do that I been all around that damn sight and I cant find the place to properly upload it! Rahhhh!!

grrrrrrrr

I just wrote a very negative entry.The most negative I have written in years.
And it was the most therapeutic thing. I cried a lot, and felt so much pain.But then I reread 3 times and I cried some more, and now I feel better....
I am ready to deal with my life and the idiots in it and that I encouter maturely.
I make and control my own fate.I am in control.Bad things happen. But its how I handle them that will make me the better person.
I am going to be ok. No more being scared, and no more being passive when people try to act sneaky use me or whatever. I am not going to act catty. But I wont tolerate crap anymore.
I am going to be alright. And I am going to contiue to be kind, to keep my heart open, to be empathic and to really care about people. I think I would hurt myself more emotionally if I became somewhat of a harder edged woman.
And my caring feelings make me a better person than a lot of people.
Its not weak. But a small victory in a way.

and I really would like to talk about it.but I think to be safe I would like to wait a week.
I made a major decision...and I hope I made the right choice.
This time I think I am going to stick to this resolution no matter how much it hurts.
Its for the best.


I am calm.I am at peace.I should be in hysterics.

this is so odd.




















I decided that I want to be a man.




















SYKE!!! bwhahahahahahhaah


but something important did happen to me.And I had to let it out in a small way.But to reveal what happened would be weird at this point in time.
Rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh x_X

has pushed it MOTHERFUCKING limits.........

* just saw a commercial for ranch dressing and salsa mix*

now thats just disgusting,unatural,freakish and undescribingly negatively disturbing.


I'll never be able to venture down the salad dressing aisle again

Why cause My mother is currently gone off into one of her bipolar rants, and I happened to be listening to Hollah Back girl on my cd player and right at the part were she sings

"This Shit is Bananas"

I turned it up obnoxiously loud.
and she kinda shut up


O__O

Umm thank You Gwen for granted me a breif moment of peace of mind.
Rememeber kids. Gwen is Magical *nods*
Damn Gwen is playing here in Philly on sunday.Rawr I wish I coul have gone. *le sigh* Maybe next time.


I WIN!!!!!

is working out nicely for me.I think as of now she is my lil gripebox.I will admit that, but I think its more of the frame of mind I am in at the moment.So many fustrating and irritating things are happening now.I am not looking for sympathy.PAHHHHHHHHHHHHH you can take it and shove it up your arses.Its just its nice to get my fustrations out.I like live journal.And my Magnoliapear is a place to get away and not be so scrutinised.And I am here with people whom I can relate to.That I like.

My lil pear makes me smile.I love this lil hidden sweet secret of mine ^_^


and yes I plan on being more positive.ROFLMAO if you know me in real lif I am not so emo all the time.

Ohhhhhh and I am getting good starting entry job interviews out the wazoo O__O
I never thought I was qualified, but I guess I am.My main problem is transportation. :/ But I am working on that.

^__^ Things are going good.

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You know whats best about my life right now.I have someone who unselfishly loves me.

I never had that before.It takes getting use to.It makes me all sappy inside thinking how lucky I am.He is my rock, he spoils me as much as he can with flowers and phone calls and treats.He lets me call him 3 am in morning freaking out and will stay on the phone with me till I ahve calmed down.

And its nice to know he is as devoted to make us work, and make our futures come together as I am.

What a special person I have found.

Look up and apply to more temp agencies
study study study for my permit ( I failed last week >_<;)
Fax out my resume, make a list of numbers I need to fax it to
Clean up my room
Organise my fabrics and start to get ready to sew costumes.
Get out my winter clothes
Talk to Mom about my leg pain and back problems in hopes to get help wiith a possible breast reduction fund. roflmao I am serious -_-;

Its really hard to describe the beauty of someone special to you especially when people just dont know him.
He has become my rock,my guide, my best friend,my lover,my heart,my light,my fustration and my love.
This year has been hard.So many hard knocks.And not with my mother but with coming to terms with how immature I am.How I personally stunted my maturity due ( shit happenings ) of my life.
Patrick.But I thank him for putting it to me straight, for not sugar coating what I hide from.


The people who love you are there for you no matter what.
Thats what he has been for me.More so than any family member.Despite the distance.This is why I fight so hard, this is why I need to fight harder.
This is what I want to at least try for !!! He is indeed special.




*sigh*

he really cares.no matter what.


and I am glad I have him now, and hope perhaps someday we can forge a forever.




























ok I am done being all emo and corny.LOL he cant see this anyway.he kinda hates lj at the moment and is on a boycott.Thats ok.


I feel sick.I am not drunk and I have not been drinking, I just feel unusually nauseous.

How many seasons of Quantum leap were there?
Did Same ever get that jump home?
How was the story tied up?

Is Lauputa also based off of a Diana Wynn Jones book, Castle in the sky?? so would that Make Howl's and Laputa related in that respective universe, or did Miyazaki change the stories up so they are unrelated in his versions?